Being a yard watchdog for my kids is making me jumpy. If they are outside playing, I find myself hopping from window to window. Sometimes, I just can't get outside because my daughter wants to play inside. I want the boys to enjoy the beautiful weather and play on the driveway. This bully patrol is wearing me out physically and emotionally. I hope that my constant vigilance annoys these boys enough to get them to find some other diversion. Today, we are at the soccer fields, and my mom and sister are coming by for a visit. It will be nice to have some friendly faces around.
Some days, I feel like I'd rather go through labor 4 times again, instead of being nervous Kelly all day. I'm afraid that I'm not equipped for this kind of everyday stress. When the kids are in the house, I feel better. Tomorrow is a school day so I'll be thinking about his upcoming bus ride and school day. I'm trying to plan so many little day trips in the summer. I wish I didn't feel like I needed to run away from my own house. The other parents refuse to step in enough to stop the harassment. They look at my complaints almost like hearsay, since it's not physical or violent. He manages all of this well. I wish I could.
Enjoy your Sunday! Have to make lunch for my hungry crowd :)