This Energizer Bunny is hunting for moments of stillness. This may be a hopeless dream considering that my gang will be bursting with energy and literally bouncing off the walls as school ends next week. Nonetheless, I think this quest is worthy of an attempt to find that kind of peace.
A few weeks ago, I walked along a very peaceful, tree-lined trail surrounded by a quiet that I welcomed wholeheartedly. To be honest, it was strange for me to be without a walking or conversation buddy. Even when I'm physically alone at home, I'm engaging myself in some kind of online activity or work. During that walk, I just breathed through each step. My mind was still whirring around with lists and obligations during the first leg of the walk. All of a sudden as I felt the push of the walk make me strive to go further and further, I recognized the stillness around. I must have pushed myself through exercise and place into an opening of my wall that I spend so much time building around my core. That part of me needs to breathe more. The stillness may be the key. I realize that I have to take out these Energizer Bunny batteries once in a while. Everyone always tells me to relax. Has it taken 44 years for me to share that light bulb of realization? So the new weekly plan (hopefully) is to go for those stillness hunting walks and breathe more thoughtfully.
I also stare up into the midnight sky when I walk Lily in the backyard each night. Those five minutes of stillness feel especially good with a cool night breeze. I'm also hoping that these self-directed times of quiet will rejuvenate that dusty Muse of mine.