Monday, March 22, 2010

I Need A Place To Just Sigh...

Instead of folding the Mt. Everest of laundry in my bedroom, I want to spend these few minutes talking with you. My husband took the two wrestling middle boys to get haircuts. They are starting to look like the Bigfoot Brothers. My oldest son is downstairs in his dungeon playing some kind of crazy video game. Hopefully, he'll emerge by dinner time. My daughter is watching an old Arthur VHS tape. Remember those? I have a bunch and she's loving them.

Me? I'm feeling....
  • anxious (Lots of resumes out. No calls yet.)
  • hungry (That banana wasn't enough.)
  • achy (My derriere (fancy hey?) is sore from marathon job surfing.)
  • blessed (We had a lovely weekend playing outside with the kids. Lots of laughs and fun.)
  • scared (Don't tell my husband. I'm trying to be the cheerleader here :)
  • rushed (Jillian just told me, "Get off the laptop. The Barbies are waiting!)
I guess no more blogging play for me now. I'll be visiting you all later on today. See you soon!

42 comments:

He & Me + 3 said...

Still praying for you all. It will be ok. Hang in there...you are blessed & feeling anxious is only natural. ((HUGS))

Mari said...

I understand that anxious and scared feeling, along with trying to remain positive for your family.
I know it will all turn out, but it's only normal to worry.
I'm still praying.

rachel... said...

Thinking of you, Kelly, and wishing there was something I could do to help. Good luck!

Gerri said...

I'm with you girl. I know all about being the scared cheerleader. I've done it many times. Good things are coming your way, I just know it. When things like this happen my dad always used to tell me "It just means something better is on the way". I try to remember that in times like these. Now, you better not keep the Barbies waiting ;-)

Janie B said...

Chin up. All will be okay.

WELCOME TO MY WORLD OF POETRY: said...

Things WILL be ok you'll see. It's only natural you have these feelings, you wouldn'tbe human if you didn't.
I will be thinking and praying for you.
Yvonne.

Dan Felstead said...

Hang in there Septembermom...I'm praying that things work out for your family...I also know what it is like to put on the "good" front when inside you are feeling quite the opposite.

Dan

Vickie said...

Oh no:( I just read a few posts down about your husband. Sorry to hear the news. I hope something comes up for the both of you. Give the resumes some time. Someone will call:)

Sorry I haven't been around. I lost the blogging mojo for a while. I just posted some crafting I did for giveaways and that was all. Trying to get back on the fun track:)

Take it easy and hope things look up:)

Ginger Jasper said...

To be scared is ok. Keep your hope up.. Keep smiling through.. Thinking of you.. HUgs GJ and Carol xx

Beth Kephart said...

I know from experience just how you are feeling, and how important it is to do just what you are doing, which is to identify and prolong all those moments that are the sweet ones, for this is your life, every single day is your life, and wherever there is sun, you must let it shine.

We are all with you.

shabby girl said...

You be his cheerleader, and we'll be yours! You know what I really liked about your post today was that you were blessed with a lovely weekend with your family. Pulling together, instead of running apart, is huge.
You're doing everything you can do right now. Hugs & prayers!

The Writing Instinct said...

It is hard to smile when all you want to do is cry (or scream!). But these help sometimes too. Thinking of you and wishing you the best of luck with your applications.

Mervat
xo

Randi said...

I loved what Shabby Girl said about you being the cheerleader for your husband, but we'll be the cheerleaders for you! What a great thought, and it is soooo true! Your husband can stay motivated and positive as long as you do, and we'll be behind the scenes ( in the derriere--ha!) in YOUR cheering section. I am so glad you can come here, amid all your friends, and just sigh when you need to.

Teresa @ ♥ TOO MANY HEARTBEATS ♥ said...

I'm so sorry I haven't been around in a while. I haven't been feeling very well, plus I've been working really hard on my series. Thanks so much for taking the time to come by and read it. I'm really sorry about your husband's job. I will be praying with you that y'all find something new (and AMAZING!) REALLY soon.

Keep looking up!

{{HUGS}}

Teresa <><

Jenners said...

What a mix of things you are feeling. I'm glad you had some good in there too. I know it sounds cliche but it will all work out. I've had moments like this too often in life to not believe that. There were moments when I felt like "Well, this is it. It will never get better and I'll always be where I am now and miserable." But it always does get better. And since you guys are a loving healthy family, it will just be a temporary detour and you will all soon be back on track.

Sending you hugs.

Gerri said...

I sending lots of love and strength your way Hon. It will all work our for good!

Joanne said...

Here's another cheer from your Blogging Cheering Squad! You seem to be doing pretty well, handling a lot under pressure, so give yourself a pat on the back. Continued good wishes being sent your way :)

Caroline said...

Hang in there sweetie. All will calm down and turn out fine. I know it's so hard to see that now. Take some time out to just breathe. Sending you prayers and good wishes! xo

Mandy's Life After 30 said...

Be sure to take some time out for yourself. You can't be everything to everyone all the time. It's okay to not be strong at times. Vent to us. Tell us your worries. We realize how stressful this must be! But in the end, I really believe that somehow it will all work out. Because it always does, right?! It doesn't make you feel better now though I suppose. Anyway, I don't know what I'm saying except that I'm thinking of you and sending you virtual hugs...

G said...

Howdy do young lady!

A very small tip: I used to do this on the rare occasion when the pressures of the day finally got to me.

I would find a very small enclosure somewhere, make sure that no one else was around, and let rip with a high pitched scream for about five seconds.

Did wonders for my sanity.

But not so much for people who were in earshot.

:D

T Rex Mom said...

Continued prayers and good wishes your way - thanks for sharing some time with us. We'll be your cheerleaders when you need a little help being your husband's. Be well.

Becca said...

I really hate that you guys are having to go through this. I am sure it is very stressful for y'all right now. I wish you the best of luck and I pray that something great comes up soon!

Michelle said...

It'll work out - and hopefully sooner than you expect. Is the job searching for you or for your husband?! (Don't worry on the slow response on resumes out - it takes time.)

Jenna said...

I love the idea that "we" all your readers and friends can be your cheerleaders. You have provided so much fun and inspiration to us, it's lovely that we now have a chance to try and give some of that back.

I am so amazed that you are always able to see the blessings that are there for you, it's a real gift to have.

I'm so blessed to have found your blog and all that you have shared as well.

I love that you were not afraid to post that you had those anxious feelings and to put that out there in the blogosphere. It shows truly what an amazing woman you are... in the midst of all that, you still have the lovely blessings of a good weekend...

Hope that the Barbies had a good time! **hugs**

Creativity!! said...

Everything Would Be Fine Dear :) :) Don't Worry :) :) I Pray For Your Family :) :)

Angela said...

Continuing to pray and think of you and your family. I'm happy to know that you had the chance to get in some bonding time over the weekend. You have many prayer warriors on your side. As a result, God will not only see you through, but he also has an abundance of blessings on the other side. Stay strong sweetie. :)

SwedishJenn said...

Soothing, encouraging thoughts being sent your way. Keep looking for those blessings, which you seem very adept at doing, and before you know it, this little hill will have been surmounted :-)

Corrie Howe said...

It was a great weekend for watching the kids have a great time at the local playground in the park. When my kids are fighting I try to get my husband to take one out with him on errands. Unfortunately, none of them want to be the one to leave the house.

I'm glad that you could take a few minutes to talk to us. ;-)

Trudy said...

Oh Kelly, I feel for you on all of those feelings and have been there many times as my husband is still searching for a FT job. You all remain in my prayers and don't forget that God has THE PLAN for all of you! It helps to count all of your beautiful blessings too.

Love ya! I will pray for an extra measure of grace and comfort today!

Trudy

glnroz said...

Basics, Basics,,tune into the basics. They will build a solid foundation. Easy for me to say, I know. I am hoping for you. glenn

destrella said...

Love your list. That is quite the crock pot of emotions. :O) Praying for you and hugs!

Herb of Grace said...

I hear ya... You can come sigh with me over at my blog :)

Kim said...

The most you can do you are already doing. That is something to be proud of. So many people let fear paralyze them into non-action. Of course you are afraid, it is fearful waters you are treading. Just keep praying and being as proactive as you can be. I hope you hear something good soon. Lots of love and hugs!

The Write Girl said...

I pray that something wonderful comes along for you soon. God bless you. I hope blogging becomes an oasis for you. The best is yet to come!!

Teresha@Marlie and Me said...

deep breath. now exhale. we are all rooting for you!

kisatrtle said...

Kelly I missed something. ARe you looking for work or is hubby looking for work. Either way I wish you both the best. (((hugs)))

Gerri said...

Hugs, hugs, and big hugs to you too. And, I meant work out for good. :)

Sarah Laurence said...

Can I send a big cyber hug? Some days are like that. It can only get better, right?

Teri said...

It's taking a little longer with the resumes these days, but hang in there. I know the cheerleader thing. You can did it, girl. One day at a time. Just one day at a time.

ClassyChassy said...

Marathon Job Surfing? That's a new one - must be what I've been doing since 2008! Cute blog - glad I found you! Will be back!

Judith Ellis said...

We are here. Much love to you...

H.K. said...

I know how you feel, but I know it's especially overwhelming since you still have little ones at home. Praying for you!